Sometimes, I’m Just Too Tired to Share…

About a month ago, I shared my hypothyroidism diagnosis on my personal FB account:

I’m definitely feeling much better… I take my daily dose of liquid iodine, liquid thyroid support, and collagen powder. I no longer feel like death every single day.

Yes, I still feel tired most days… but the painfully sluggish fatigue? Rarely.

Prior to this, I didn’t even know I had such a gland inside me. WTFreak… and how could something so little affect so much?

My hair fell out in CLUMPS when I ran my fingers through it. A ball of hair the size of a small rodent. It was pretty sad. And the fatigue was just horrible. I couldn’t stay awake longer than a few hours at a time… I’ve even had days when I was so exhausted, I’d break down in tears.

Don’t get me started with the migraines and vertigo. I’d start to see the sparkles and lights… then hear the high-pitched sound that signaled I’m about to get hit with either or.

And when I did, I couldn’t function for at least a week.

I was falling apart… yet, I always felt I can handle it… or that I had too much to do to get myself checked… or both.

That’s a mom-thing, I think. We just keep going because we think if we stopped for even moment, everything will fall apart. Over-function much?  Well, I gotta remember that I have an intelligent and responsible young man here to help me out.

But I digress…

Because of my health, I had to learn to protect & conserve my mental, emotional, and physical energy (even more than ever)… from the people I choose to interact with, to responsibilities I agree to take on.

This means, sometimes I need to keep my “shares” to myself… because I know I won’t have the energy to continue the dialogue. And that makes me a little sad… because being an introvert, social media satisfies my need to connect with everyone without leaving me feeling over-stimulated.

So I went off on a tangent again… brain fog is a symptom of hypothyroidism. And honestly, my head is like… POOF!

It’s just so weird tho… all this time, whenever I heard someone say they’re feeling tired, I just assumed it’s the same kind of “tired” (ie. unbearably sluggish) that I was feeling. Now that fatigue is no longer a daily issue, I’m here thinking… “So, this is what everyone’s been talking about? I can SO do THIS kind of tired!” lol…

Ok, gotta go… I’m tired.

Carmen

Single-momma, certified cognitive behavioral coach practitioner, toxic relationship recovery coach, religion teacher, best selling author, foodie wannabe, and advocate for victims of narcissistic abuse.

Living la vida loca in Vegas with my favorite human… pseudo-adulting, Tahitian dancing, and bubble tea!

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